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Decisions

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If only making decisions was as easy as picking a donut... which would be an easy decision for me, although a bad one!

Sometimes I wish I was a bit more impulsive, but I'm not, I'm practical and a realist. This can be both a good thing and a bad thing. Good because most of my decisions are sound, based in reality and safe. Bad, because I'm always safe and somewhat predictable.

Lately though I made a decision that has me pretty excited.

I invested in a personal trainer, my second attempt at getting in shape. The first time didn't stick, but something weird happens when you turn 40. Suddenly you start thinking about getting OLD, retiring, and health issues. Something I NEVER thought about in my youth, 20's or 30's. Getting in shape started in my mind when I turned 35, but hitting 40 made me realize how fast time flies, and getting older brings it's own set of changes I'm not quite ready to deal with.

I'm heading into my third month of working out, and I can definitely see results, but I find myself dealing with issues that exist only in my head. My body is changing, but the scale isn't really moving, so this fucks with my head. I have to constantly battle the voice in my head and it just takes so much energy; but I know that if I want this to stick... the voice has to be dealt with. Another decision that needed to be made, and I'm sure there will be more to come.

If I analyze my decision making process it can probably be summed up in a question: What am I afraid of?

occassionaly circumstances make my decisions, hence...

there will be no donuts in my near future!


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